Dear Ex, 

I write this letter to you because despite all that we’ve been through in these 2 years, my heart can’t unlearn all the ways I’ve loved you. You broke me, cheated on me, tore me into pieces. Looking back at our toxic texts, I know we were never gonna work out. But why is it so hard to leave you behind?

I have such a good reason to hate you. Somehow, it was easier to when it was all fresh. As time went, I simply couldn’t hate you as much. Maybe because all I did in those 2 years, was to love you. Months later, and I can still remember the smell of your cologne. I can still remember laying down with you in bed and looking into your eyes. 

Everything feels like a lie now. After all we had been true, I know whatever that happened is for the best. We simply weren’t right for each other. You’ve given me so much to deal with, that it may years before I can visit places we went together and not think of..us..

I genuinely wish you well. I wholeheartedly pray that you find your peace and thrive in life. Maybe we will be better together in the next birth…

Til then, to the first boy that I loved. That I poured my heart and soul out to, goodbye.