I was so young when we met. Young and stupid. I can’t believe it was almost 6 years ago. You were the first person who actually made me feel like I wanted more out of life. You made me aim higher personally and professionally.

It’s sad that I’m still hung up on you and what happened, but that’s life. I’ve had many boyfriends since then, but nobody has made me feel the butterflies like you did.

It was all my fault and I wish I could just apologize to you. I told secrets to your friend and I’m sure you know that. I think that’s why you stopped talking to me and I don’t blame you. You probably think I’m some crazy bitch. The truth is that I was heartbroken and I didn’t know how to go on. I’m a much different person now and I wish you could see that. I wish we could talk one last time so that I could show you how far I’ve come. I wish you would forgive me. I wish you would e mail me or reach out or something.

I know I need to let go of this. I think the reason I still think about you so often is because I didn’t have the closure I needed. You shut me out. It was like I had become addicted to the best drug ever and then been cut off cold turkey.

I know you’re too busy to think of me. You have a ton going on with your girls and traveling and life, I’m sure. But I just wish I could have coffee with you and say I’m sorry. I’m still thinking of the crew and hoping you are doing great.