i don’t know how to start this… but i just wanted to say “HI Hubby”….

it’s been 6 months seen you broke up with me….and i’m still hurt…there is so many things i wanna say to you actually i wanted to do this personally but it seems i can’t face you..i’m scared… i’m scared you might ignore me or you might think i’m obsesses with you… but i don’t want to have “What if’s” in my life… like “what if i chased him?. or what if i didn’t agree to his decision? or what if i told him i still loved him?”

i don’t want to have regrets in our relationship…. let me bring you back to my happiest moment when we were together…

May 30 2014.. remember the first time we saw each other… you were in black t-shirt and Blue skinny jean…i was scared and a bit excited to see for the first time my “Baby” i got a little shy.. coz i thought i was taller than you… but actually the height was not a big deal that time…we went to the penthouse… we sited next to each other… i remember i didn’t want you to stare at me… but still you did…early that day it was so hot but when we got up at the penthouse it started to rain…and you remembered that i have a request from you.. to bring me something that would remind me of you everyday.. and there you go.. you gave me you Hoody i was shocked coz i did not expect to have hoody all i wanted was just a t-shirt from you…did i ever told you before that your hoody means a lot to me.. because before i met you i promised myself that the first man who will give me hoody will be my husband…well i think it happened that’s the first time you hold my hand and hugged me from behind which i loved the most… remember the compilation of our pictures that day? remember the song? “Best Day of My Life” by American Authors how accurate right? it’s my best day…

My happiest moment was the first time i met you…and just like any other couples we had our ups and downs…. we fought, we argued and we broke up but still we got back together… and then in the middle of our 4th monthsary… you suddenly got cooled and bored with me…you suddenly don’t want to spend time neither text me you didn’t want to….leaving me thinking what was happening that time.. why you suddenly CHANGED…and trials came to my life… and i needed you beside me but you weren’t there… i was so disappointed but i managed to stay calm and i just understand you that time…and there goes my birthday…. November 07,2014…

you were there.. and my family… we’re having a good time.. then we went swimming up stares… first night swimming and first watch the stars with you… it was almost a perfect birthday for me.. and then you came to my worst day ever…. you wanted to break up with me… i don’t know what to think.. i wanted to not agree with you.. but who am i to refuse.. and i gave back your hoody and Cars (the stuffy) and then you went home… you called me told me let’s make it official.. so Nov 8 2014 it’s official we’re both single…. we didn’t talk for a week then.. i went to see you and discover something about you and hated you so much.. then Nov 30 came i surprised you because i wanted to help and we had our first dinner with your family… i thought we were getting back together that time.. but it leaves me hanging and hoping that we’ll be back… and then here we are… both hurt and feeling some parts of me are missing.. atleast i’m feeling like that…

i’m still hoping one day you’ll be back again…and you’ll sing “Marry Me” by Jason Derulo..our favorite song…and you be in my arms again and we’ll imagine our future together same as our Babies..”Jermaine and Jerome” but for now i’m setting you free.. do what ever you want and what will make you happy.. i love you and i always will…

i hope you can still open your old twitter…

i’m missing you so much…i will always be here waiting for you… i’ll wait for you until you’re ready to love me again…whenever you need me i’l be there i SWEAR.. LATER future my Hubby…i love you so much my infinite and beyond….

i still do love you Jero….

love

your WIFEY