It’s been more than a month since we’ve been together. I’ve loved you with utmost respect since a whole year. It was always hard for me to face you with your ex girlfriends, though I never you what made my heart ache was the love I had for you. Since the day I have you things have changed in my disturbing life! I’ve actually started living, baby. I’ve started loving you like a crazy person even though I know we won’t end up together. My heart aches but then I make it quiet.
I’ve always been listening to what you, what you wanted me to be. As time passed, you changed. I can feel the change in you. Never ever heard a single “I love you, baby” from your side since a long time. Whenever I used to ask you, “you’re mine?” You always replied, “All yours. Forever and ever.” And now, when I say you “I love you” what do I get is a kiss emoticon? Wow. Same goes for when I ask you “Mine?” What I get is yet again a kiss emoticon and trust me baby this tears me into pieces, because your not the person I loved.
I’m tired. I’m tired of making it up to you always. I’m tired of trying to make you mine. I’m just so tired. I’m tired of loving you like a crazy person. I’m tired of being what you want.
I’ve never complained on whatsoever you said to me or what you wanted me to be. What I always wanted was ‘love’ and ‘affection’ from your side in return. That’s it. You’ve always failed to love me. Always! And here I am still waiting for the day that you’ll love me the way I love you.:)
I wish I had the guts to tell you all this but I’m just afraid of loosing you. I LOVE YOU A LOT!