Dear Ben,

I’ve felt so bad after what I did to you that I wanted to  seriously  injure myself and die. I had to get lots of professional mental help and work hard to stay alive. I have tried to move on with my life but can’t help but feel guilty still and responsible for making you feel like you did.  I wish you well  in your endeavors and I thank you for  showing me what it’s like to be loved. I will  try to consider others when I make decisions in the future. I’m sorry  for my behaviour. I have learned so much  since then!  I just wanted to let you know. You are sooo completely handsome and wonderful. You can do anything. Thanks!