I do love you very much. Spending time with you made me feel so good inside, in all honesty. I want you in my life, J! I feel all empty inside right now without being able to talk to you.
I know we have had our differences and rocky times and I know I’m at fault for a lot of the things. I want to apologize to you for them. What I have said and done was not right at all. My anger may have been directed towards you and it should not have been. What I did for you, I did because I care for you and wanted to see you happy. It was wrong of me to throw it in your face like I have. If I could take back what I said and did, I would. What I can do is try to mend the damage that I have done and hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. It was wrong, stupid, and immature of me to do what I did and say what I said. And now that I see how much my actions have made me looks so stupid.
I don’t know if it’s ever possible for you to forgive me, but I hope that someday you can find a way to do so. I hate that there’s a chance that you will never want to be a part of my life again, so I hope you know that I will do whatever it takes to prove to you that I can do better if you just give me another chance.
I know that I don’t deserve anything from you, but I can only hope that you’ll read these words, knowing that I mean every one of them.