I just want to say thank you.

Thank you for helping me realise that you aren’t the person you say you are.
Thank you for making me realise that you are not ready to be serious with me.
Thank you for helping me realise that my doubts were in fact true, and that I’m not ‘crazy’.
Thank you for making me realise that you are manipulative and a liar.

Since we broke up 8 weeks ago, you have proved to me that my decision was right. That you cannot step up and be a ‘man’. That you cannot offer me the time and support a partner should. You have shown me that you are still immature and childish. You have shown me that no matter how nice I am, you will never be able to be nice back. You have stalked me, judged me, made up lies about me to your family, tried to push our friends away from me, yet all I’ve been is nice to you.

Thank you for ruining our 19 years of friendship.
Thank you for lying about me.
Thank you for ruining my friendship with others through your lies.
Thank you for treating me the way you did, with little respect and love.
And thank you for never being there for me, even when I only had you.

You made me feel so down, yet made me feel like I only had you, for too long. You was never there for me, never offered me any support through the times that were the hardest for me. You never offered me your free time and pushed me away, yet expected me to be there at the drop of a hat for you. You used me for the things that only you wanted and didn’t care about my wants or needs. You ‘loved’ me in all the wrong ways. You commented on my appearance and pushed at my anxiety, til the point that I wouldn’t be able to leave the house alone, for the fear of people judging me. You accused me of cheating, seeing other people, lying to you, when actually I was so consumed with anxiety that I refused to leave my bed. So thank you.

Thank you for ‘loving’ me, you have shown me how not to be loved.
Thank you for allowing the time for someone else to show me what it’s like to be loved
Thank you for distancing yourself from me, allowing me the time to get over you.
Thank you for making this break up easy for me.