Dear Paul,

Slashing right through me while you work out your goodbyes. The pain, it’s worst than the first time. At least I knew he was bad for me, you took me by surprise.

The sudden realization that my circumstances have made me unlovable.

It’s like my chest is being sawed open. My heart ripped from my body. Am I not enough?

I want to love you with my everything. It’s like you know me, you’ve seen my soul and decided it wasn’t worth it.

Tears can’t drown away the pain. And you can’t pretend you’ll hurt the same.

Your name….. already etched in my heart……. i can feel myself becoming cold and dark.

shit 🙁 were we doomed from the start