Sweet Jesus. Life is so good. Almost everyday I am grateful to you. Cheating on me was the most amazing gift anyone has ever given me.

Because you cheated, I am now away from you, and my feelings flew away joyfully into oblivion. In one second. You gave me closure. You gave me the most beautiful chance at a good, gorgeous life.

So I still get a little triggered here and there, that old knee kicking reflex, but I am so in love. I found a good man. I am so happy it feels dangerous. And three years later, I still thank you quietly from time to time.

Thank you for making it so easy to seek something else. For showing me all the ways I can be if I let myself, and how to avoid them. You made it possible for me to see the red flags and run away. And now I have love that never felt like mine to have.

I’m grateful to you. I hope you find the happiness you’ve been chasing for so long. I’m so happy I no longer stay up nights wondering why life is so hard, sobbing because I confused the pain of being with you with the pain of missing you.

Thank you. Sweet jesus, I’m happy. And so in love.