Dear Charlie,

When I first met you I had no idea you were going to be an asshole. You appeared to be nice, polite, smart, attractive… and to this day I don’t know if you hid your true colours from me or if I just was too stupid to notice them.

I’m not sorry I left you, but I’m sorry that it took me so long to let things go. I’ve never met anyone so selfish like you. I’m sorry that I lost my dignity by staying for months with you when you clearly didn’t love me. I’m sorry for that too; you couldn’t love me because you were too selfish to have the capacity of actually loving someone who isn’t yourself. We could have had it all, but we didn’t because you wouldn’t let things work. I’m sorry that I tried to make our relationship function.

 I can’t believe you said that you loved me but that you were not in love with me until things weren’t right. You waited for me to collapse to tell me. You could’ve had told me seven months before so I wouldn’t live for that time with that lie.

I hate you. I hope you stay alone because you push people away. You pushed your friends away, you push your family away, you pushed me away, the only person that stayed with you no matter what you did to her. But that’s over, I will no longer hold on to you or your bullshit. You clearly don’t know how to treat a girl, or any human being for I all know. So I repeat: I hope you stay alone so you can learn the value people have.

You were the worst that could’ve happened to me.