It’s been a little over two weeks since our last conversation and I feel like a lot has happened since. Every now and then, I’ll see that guy in class who looks just like you. I’ll go to the gym at school and it always reminds me of you, because you were the one to get me into fitness in the first place. I’ll be at home during the nights, wishing I had someone to bounce ideas off of or just have a great conversation with. You’re one of the most intelligent guys I’ve ever met, and yet you’re still down to earth, logical, and kind. The only problem was that you had commitment issues, and in a sense I had them as well. I feel like we were two of the right people, but just didn’t meet at the right time or under the right circumstances.
We had a semi-relationship… and I wish we had more. Sometimes you treated me like we were in one, other times you’d cut me off. Other than that, I feel like we would have been such a great match. The truth is I still miss you… and I wish I hadn’t sent that last set of messages to you because now I’ll always secretly be hoping for you to come back when really I should have just walked away… but now I feel like you probably won’t come back.
I told you to talk to me again if you ever felt you were ready but I’m not sure if that day will ever come. I don’t want you to forget about me, because I know I won’t forget about you. You were more than just someone who’d be a partner… you were someone I aspired to as well. You take good care of yourself, put in a lot of work, and I feel we were on the same plane.
When I told you I didn’t click with many people the same way I did with you, you didn’t believe me… but trust me, one day you’ll see it the way I do… you just don’t know it yet because you haven’t spent much time getting to know others in depth.
But wherever you are in life right now… and I assume that’s working hard in construction and school… I want you to be happy. I also want you to grow and open up to people. It’s what you want but can’t push yourself to do… but once you do, it’ll be rewarding. Maybe painful at times, but you deserve it. Everyone does… and I hope you are open to the opportunity when it comes.