S.,
I don’t know what to say or even feel about you. I know I miss you deeply, you and that little dog of yours, and I would love to take you back if you ever gave it another chance. I hurt all the time, am prone to losing my shit at any moment, and I feel so alone. I don’t understand why you just decided to throw me away. All you had to do was try a bit harder to include me in your life and things would have worked out for both of us. I did nothing to deserve such treatment. I did not beat you, I did not tell you that you were worthless, I did not hold back anything from you. You had my whole being and decided to throw it away. Why? I treated you like a queen. I did everything in my power to help when I could and when I needed help from you, you turned and ran away like a child.
Your decision will come to haunt you. When they are done with you, they will toss you aside. I would never to that to you. You were scared because no one ever treated you as good as I did.
But i’m conflicted. I alternate between wishing you would take me back and being so angry that I want to see you in pain. I have said and thought the most vile things while I am alone in the car or at home. I know I do these things because I am hurt. I just want to love you again.
Dang that was very deep and heart touching….. beautiful letter.. Thankz for sharing