I wish you’d come back. You said that you loved me, and when I first suggested that distance might not be the greatest, you said, “babe, if anyone can do it, it’s us.” I realized that you were right, and I’ve held that by my heart for these past two years that we’ve been together. Now, two years later, you decide– distance is too hard for you. You decide I’m not worth the fight anymore, and that you want to experience life. I understand the part about wanting to experience things, but HOW COULD YOU just give me up to distance?
You always said that we’d prove the world wrong, and that we’d get married, move in, and start a family together. You said you love me, but you can’t do this anymore. I say that if you can’t do this, you don’t love me. I’ve loved you with all my heart ever since the day I met you, and you’ve said yourself that you’ll never find anyone like me. How could you just let me go? I’m fighting with all I have to keep you happy, yet you’ve given up. You say that we can be together again once I go to college, but that’s still in one year…and you say, then, that you’ll still go out with other girls! I want to grow up with you. I don’t, however, want to be hurt wanting to grow up with you. I don’t know what to do. God, I love you so fucking much and I’d fight to Hell’s gate and back for you. I’ve wiped your tears and held your hand when you were upset, and I’ve kissed you and smiled with you when you were happy. We’ve been through years of laughter and tears, and I’ve never, and will never, love another like you. Someone like you is impossible to find, and I simply can’t let go of a boy who makes me giddy just with the thought of him. To me, you are infinite.