Breathe. Take a long, deep breath. “Pain is temporary”, I repeatedly say to myself over and over again. “No more tears. Tears are for the weak. Tears are for the hurt. Tears are for the broken. DON’T drop a tear!”, I whisper to myself while trying to hold my tears. I can’t. The tears are falling now. The tears are falling for the wrong reason– You caused this. You weren’t supposed to make me cry. :'(

There are just no words to describe how I feel. How can someone, well the ONLY person you trusted with your heart betray you? How can someone, who you came to on your knees begging to help them mend their broken heart, TAKE IT and STOMP IT. My heart has already been tampered with enough by the corrupted. BUT NOW– Now my heart feels as if it has been stabbed out out of my chest by your dishonesty, disloyalty, and distrust.

Forgiveness is the only word that comes to mind because I can’t let you go because you were the only thing that put a smile on my face at a time– You were my happiness, my reason for living. YOU WERE MY WORLD! YOU WERE MY  PRIZED POSSESSION. The front of the trophy case and on the highest pedestal you stood 🙂 You were my trophy! You were so PERFECT to me. Your hair, your attitude, your temperament, your seductive demeanor, your athleticism, your physique and the best for last– Your haunting yet breathtaking smile. Anytime you smiled my soul felt so alive. EVERYTHING YOU DID just grasped my soul. YOU were my EVERYTHING. YOU were my life. I just hate you jeopardized us because of your self-control but I will forgive you but I won’t forget it. I know you will learn from this mistake and I will too 🙂 SO I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I promise.**

#7.6.14 <3

**- Unless you do something really foul.