Breaking silence

Breaking silence

Breaking silence

Dear Rei,

I’ll hope you read this if not then life goes on.

But i want you to know you’re somebody that I’ll never forget because Your my best friend since the time we first met. You may hate me , May called me out my name and even chew me down with your friends but truly can you ever forget the time How i supported you when you had your falls out events?

you didn’t sit there to understand how i feel . How we became colder to each other, and even more annoyed with each other . You kept saying we’re different I see that.But I never look down on you or cheated on you like your friend called me out ,. You getting your friend at me was the worst thing you can ever do because as a man you was supposed to fix the problems with me directly. You was my best friend, remember? You used to tell me everything and I was there to even tell you things will be okay It hurts so much  and in the end you got what you wanted because you wanted to hurt me because you was hurting . I get it. But somewhere in the line i couldnt fight back and told you i hate you or  ya friends because i love ya individual . You guys put me through hell, You change me completely to become this cold hearted person to trust the world around me . YOU GIVE me no hope to believe in people in general. I HATE YOU.

i wish i could actually say that before BUT I HATE you . i hate the person whom you became , i hate  how you used me . i hate how you lied about me , i hate how you put me down before others as if i was shit to you to begin with.

I never told you the reason why i wasnt talking to you, because you never ask you went ahead and ignored me and do you remember the day you was ” i made a new skype and added all my friends”.  you didnt add me , was that sign you was going to move because i said no to that webcam sex? i told you how i felt about this… you deny me . understand how i felt? I felt like i lost my bestfriend the person whom i met before and when i was dating . we had a tight bond enough to tell and trust each other but you allowed your friends to feed your actions. you didnt even tell them the truth but told them i was trying to ruin your friendship with them. BEING HONEST WITH YOUR SELF.

I wasnt the one who got my friends at you in the very end . I left things unsaid, for a reason because i was hurting. I didnt see you because of the fact , i wasnt ready to see you.

You kept stating my feelings were fake, and ya got ya friends calling me a whore. but in the end did i ever didyou wrong? did i ever said u wasnt good enough?

when you guys was putting me down in shame i just wanted to curse each and one of ya out.

but i didn’t… i try to be a lady through the shit .

..

anyway, I just want you to know.No matter what our path cross You’ll still be a good friend from the past when we first met when we was 13. I’llnever forget those time when we laugh. I regret dating you because I lost the friend in you.

But unlike you , I wish the best for you . Yes, Im dating you know who.But things are working out pretty well honestly.

things are finally going at my favor with school ,and work . everything is going well. But  I hope everything goes well for you and your family even though you hate the person whom i am.

I’ll never grow a bitter heart or soul

I’ll forgive you, and move on.

& I hope you find that one person who treat you in the same level.

Thanks for being my friend from the beginning and thank you for allowing our friendship to die as well cause I as a person will never look at you the same way.

Sorry,

Chi.-

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