I am sorry for the way a reacted in response to the mean and hurtful things you said to me on our drive home that night. I just wanted to know that I will always love you no matter what happens because I remember God speaking to you and me about how we were supposed to be together. He reaffirmed it the night you broke down in tears when I asked how do you know your supposed to be with me and you said because God told me, I had prayed for our relationship prior to you saying that asking him to give me a sign  that he told you to be with me and he spoke to me through you that night.

I will never forget the love and good times we had together and I am in the process of fixing my anger and resentment problems I had towards you by going to counseling and should be finishing it in a couple of months. After counseling I wont be angry and bitter towards you anymore and maybe someday we can meet again after everything hopefully blows over. But I promise you, I will never stop loving you and I will also always regret what happened that  night for the rest of my life. I don’t understand why God wold bring us together and then let something like that happen between us. I am sorry and cant hardly live with the decision I made that night I still want to be with you and I will love you until my very last breath. I wont give up and stop praying that we get back together because I know it’s what God wants for me.

I still love you and hope you are ok. I know you are my soulmate and I hope you read this and know who this is. I am finishing my counseling over the next two months and then if everything works out and if you choose to you can text me letting me know its you that’s texting me and then I will respond and hopefully we can fix and mend our relationship together, but this time no alcohol, lets  do it with God in charge. I have been going to church and would like you to come with me. You know my number, its still the same all you have to do is text me saying it’s you and I will happily respond.