Stages of heartbreak
things i wanted to say but never did
11.12.14: you broke my heart yesterday. into a million pieces. i am numb.
11.20.15: why tell me we may get back together if you know that won’t happen?
11.25.14: you still cant look at me. i miss you.
11.27.15: i yelled at you. i ruined everything.
12.15.14: i never shouldve given back your sweatshirt. i miss your touch.
12.24.15: we argued today. not a day goes by that i dont miss you.
12.31.14: he kissed me tonight, a lot. all i could think of was what you would do when you found out.
1.1.15: we argued again. i told you to get over me and not to talk to me again.
1.13.15: you found out where i was accepted into college. i applied in october. i was going to tell you. i was. i promise.
1.18.15: i think im okay without you.
2.13.15: im going to florida today. i brought the sticker you stuck in my locker months ago for hopes of a safe flight. i cant do this without you with me somehow.
2.16.15: i wish i could talk to you. mom saw how skinny i was. i told her the truth about what i’ve been doing and she laughed. so did my sister.
3.3.15: i was awful today. i’m sorry. you told him to tell “that bitch” to get over you and not to talk to you again. im sorry.
3.4.15: i saw the picture she posted and my heart broke. it broke into a million pieces. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you.
3.4.15: funny how people end up with the ones you least expect.
3.5.15: i talked to your grandma today. she told me you aren’t happy anymore. i dont wish i could fix that anymore.
3.7.15: i wanted to congratulate you on your win, but i couldnt think of anything that didnt sound bitter. i need to let my anger towards you go.
3.9.15: i have days where all i wish for is for you to talk to me and days where i want nothing to do with you ever again.
3.13.15: i will always love you.
3.14.15: i really like him. i need to let go of you for him. you will always have a piece of my heart. keep it. i’d never take it back.