i know you are enjoying your new life .. and i remember i said to you this time not the same like any other time previously.. why you never feel how much i loved you ? and why there was a heavy stone in your heart towards me when i was totally loving you by all of me .. but you know girl why i always forgave you for more than 4 times you left me its not a stupidness from me no .. it was the kindness of the heart what you always stepped on it even when i think i dont know but forget that true lovers sometimes they can feel abd see by their third eye whats going on behind them even though i forgave you .. last time we planned for our life and suddenly you gone without reasons after 7 years u just say it will take time to forget and u forget my heart isnt able to accept any new woman and my eyes refuses to see anyone one else .. i will never forget you .. and i will never contact you because i respect my heart , i meant to write my message here to let it run in the sea of life .. im so sad from you and im so missing you but u really broke me so hard .. if god gave u a man loves u more than what u wanted .. why u didnt save this love and keep it a live and u just make me feel now i am alive dead at the same time .. i miss u really N but i will never contact you till you know the value of what you lost and after all those months i still keep single and i will live and die single itsmy choice and no one can blame me .. call me crazy call me anything but this me i am a man with one straight heart even if this heart will cost me living in lonliness forever i will do it bravery i will go with my life i will keep my story and all what left from us and take it with me .. i will never cry or be weak or please u to back .. i will just let the life teach you because the life its the best teacher and if you find someone better than me believe me i will be happy for you because true lover never hate . maybe i am 31 today but i feel like 61 without you .. please do me one favor to try to wake up your heart .. and remember u weren’t only my lover u were and still my lover and my daughter and my soulmate thats i never and i will never angry you .. now did you understand what you never understood before ? can u feel and touch it ? can u even imagine how i feel now ? or maybe new love make you cannot see me at all . believe me you were the one who make me feel alive nowadays i forget the days and the weeks and my morning became night and my night became morning .. god bless you even if u hurt me … i still forgiving you and i mean it and yes i am so sad from you but i still love you if u really know my heart u will know how to get me back forever only by ur heart “N” not by words . u make me go so faraway now but one day i will back if i found the reason to back .