The way I am feeling right now, Angry! Dam it! Wtf I am so mad at myself! I have been doing fine & moving on! But then my old fb account I had deactivated reappears! I had to take it down again! But before I did. I want to see what I was deleting? Why did I see old photos of us? And then I saw our old inbox messages. The countless I Love You’s! The baby here baby there! Our late night conversation while you worked the night shift! Omg! My heart began beating fast! The pain in my hurt return! When I saw your face I remembered us! It had to be real? The picture of us! Our eyes are lit up! You had to have loved me! It had to be real? My heart aches! Dam it! Why did you hurt me so bad! I am so angry with you! Why? Please tell me why? Why did you come into my life to have me destroyed? What did I do to you to hate me so much?  You really didn’t give me a chance! You stepped right into you families house and it was done! It was a setup for you to return to that tranny old women. You took a advantage me! You created something in me that I never had! Numbness & Angrier. The feeling is very close to grievance! I Appreciated your mind! I appreciated you! I am so angry at you!! You are a f*king coward! You couldn’t even face me! You stole from me!! I trusted you! How does someone do that to someone they supposedly loved?  You are scum! A piece a shit! I wish you be ignored for the rest of you under cover life! The wishes on the stars are now wishing misery onto you! May you never feel appreciated. May you always be broke and dull. May your teeth continue to fall from all that nasty smoking you do! May you continue to take Viagra and have it not work for you! May it always be limp!! Did you not realize I loved you completely! All those flaws didn’t matter to me bc I fucking loved you! It wasn’t the sex at all or a piece of ass (as what the tranny would say)! I loved you! That what love is! Love is over looking all the flaws. I looked at you with desired! You don’t know the meaning of love!  Love is unconditional!! I can’t wait for the day when you are completing gone from my mind, heart and soul! -I loved you 1439oo/1540oo (writing those numbers really made me cry) I would of even accepted your friendship.