Oh where do I start,?
First I want to say I never cheated…despite the phone in my purse…and the texts from Felisha! I was never trash nor will I ever be! I really can not believe the cruelty ..the venom that spilled from your mouth! Oh and BTW no NO ONE WILL EVER ..EVER HAVE MY HEART AGAIN..SO YOUR WISH FOR SOMEONE TO STOMP OR CRUSH MY HEART WILL NOT COME TRUE..sorry! I want to so bad say mean.. cruel things to you also..however I am unable to harbor hate…even though I know how much you hate me…I have never been so devastated in my life!….I miss you..but why? You wish me dead…and only the worse for me..what’s wrong with me ? I often ask..thank goodness you can not answer that because I don’t need anymore shit to kick me down even lower. I just don’t get how if you always hated me…never believed me…thought I was trash ..why did you stay? Not to mention ask me to marry you…and on top of all that I still remained your friend when you thought you were dying or going to die from prostate cancer… and how quick I was right there when you thought you were going to have a heart attack…does that not speak volumes to you?…or wait you have left me behind you as in the past so nothing I ever did meant nothing…and you know how fucked up my brain is…I still hope that one day..you will contact me..even though you said stay the fuck out of my life. Ya know I stood up for me and that’s what I get..you are trash…I hope someone stomps and crushes your heart…I wish the worse for you…you said so much in this break up ..my mind is spinning. Wasn’t my love and willingness to prove it to you in many ways.. why wasn’t it…why wasn’t I good enough? The mistakes I had made could all have proven my innocence… I guess I need to just let it go..but I cry daily…. I go through panic attacks…I love you…I miss you …no matter the hate you hold for me …I love you…I do wish you well.