I fucked up, I know I did. I was stupid. I was too ignorant to know how to communicate. I was scared, but in too deep. I was drowning and instead of trying to swim, I chose to sink. I was weak and clueless and had no idea how to truly accept true love into my life. That is why I made you out to be a cheater in my head to justify me running. Yes I ran. I admit it. I thought you would chase after me, but … you didn’t. I should’ve never ran. I should’ve kept the baby, I should’ve stayed. I should’ve showed you that I loved you. But, I didn’t. I wanted you to do all the leg work. I was trying to live a fairytale. I was broken and empty and confused. I didnt know how to love and instead, I pushed away the only man that I should’ve been running to. I know I fucked up and I am so sorry. If I could turn back time to fix it, I would. In a second. Years later, although miles apart …. here I am, asking you to please forgive me and please see me as the woman I am now and to open your heart to me. Please give me another chance. I don’t care how many oceans I have to cross, I don’t care if I have to lose all I have now to make it to you, I will. I know you may not want me to, but I can’t help it, i love you so much. You’re my best friend and you mean so much to me and everytime I try to be with anyone else, alI i think about is you. Here’s my heart …..