Dear D:

Hey I never thought that I would be writing a letter to you on a site, even if I sent a letter to you would never read it. So this is just as good, but you’ll never know of this letter. I just want to vent anyways.

So, It’s been about a month since you told me that you no longer wanted me in your life and that you wanted me to leave you alone. I’ve done a good job of it so far and I plan to keep it that way. It’s been getting easier, not talking to you and all. I still think of you from time to time. Eh. I miss you. Then I don’t, I told you that I had relapsed and self harmed, you left me right away. A lot of people told me that I deserved better, and I mean a lot. I should’ve listened to them. Maybe I wouldn’t have been so heart broken when you broke up with me, via. text may add. You said that you were too scared to see me. It’s a dick move to break up with someone via text, it’s possibly the worst way to break up with someone. You have to do it in a respectful matter. Yeah I am going to have a lot of emotions when you do it, but that’s natural because I care about you.

We only dated for 4 months and we have been apart for 5 and I finally got over you. What a relief. I regret meeting you, but I don’t regret the lessons that you taught me. The guy I am currently with I won’t make those mistakes with him, I know not to.

If I could go back in time and fix it all. I wouldn’t, I wanted to before but now I don’t I’m in a better place with my life, and you are finally not holding me back which is amazing.

Thank you; thank you for teaching me not to show feelings.