Hi, how’s work going with you? i’m sure you’re doing a great job out there, it’s been a while, i really miss you.
few things i wish i could tell you:
1. i cheated on you so many times, No you’re not the only girl i’ve touched during those 5-6 years, and when i told you that i didn’t touch any other girl after our break-ups i was lying.
2. That pendant you gave me on my birthday, i gave it to a girl, she bought me something, i didn’t have anything to give her back, so that’s what i did, i’m sorry.
3. I love you, i swear i do, but sometimes, i talked to you only for the “physical thing”, i know how sacred that was for you but for me sometimes it was just like that, especially the last 2 years or so, i mainly texted you so we can sleep together again, i admit being with you was the most beautiful thing on earth, but i didn’t know that back then.
4. i got into a whole relationship with other girl during that time i told you we need a break, yeah it continued for like 9 months, i dumped you for that girl.
5. When i told you we have no future because i don’t think of anything serious before like 10 years and bla bla bla, guess what? i was lying, it was because i didn’t think you’re enough, i swear i loved you but i don’t know why i think you weren’t enough.
6. every song i shared with you, i shared it with plenty other girls, and that song that was playing during our first kiss, that i promised i won’t share it with anyone else, i shared it, many times.
7. Last time you were at my place, there was another girl in the same bed the day before.
There are so many other things i want to confess about, i can’t remember.
after all these years, i want to say, i love you, and it aches my heart when i think that you’re out there with someone else kissing you, i know i can get you back and i want to, but i don’t see a future for us.
Anyway, You’re the only girl i have ever loved, and this isn’t a lie..
Btw, i meet you in a dream every night, and i tell you “holwak ya rouh” every night too, you know what i mean.