i can’t stop thinking about how different things were a year ago today, when things were better…happier.
I remember us being inseparable, not even being able to go one day without seeing the other. I remember feeling like the happiest girl in the world when I was with you because I felt so loved and so proud to be able to call you mine. I can’t stop picturing us sitting in the basement of my very first house wrapping all of our Christmas gifts together and getting into kissing fights over the tape. But here we are, one year later and things are harder than ever. We can barley talk to eachother now without getting into some sort of argument, and those single days apart from eachother have turned into months apart. I’m not there to help you do your Christmas shopping for all 5 of your sisters and you aren’t here to do my wrapping for me. I know that things have been over for awhile between us but now knowing that you’re off doing those things that we used to do with someone else is never going to be an easy thing to stomach.
They say this is supposed to be “the most wonderful time of the year” but for me it’s one of the most heartbreaking. If I could turn back the calendar and do it all over again with you, I..I don’t know if I could.