Dear Jess,
We didn’t start off perfectly, but we truly became something real. I watched you grow into such a beautiful woman and I can only be heartbroken that I wasn’t enough for you. My insecurities ultimately led to your loss of respect for me as well as the tension between us at the end of our relationship. I don’t know why I’m writing this, but I just wanted to say that I still can’t stop myself from thinking about you, dreaming about you, and just missing everything about you. You were absolutely perfect to me including your flaws. The thought of us discussing marriage and a future together like opening a bed and breakfast and what our kids would look like. I’ve never had that before and am still devastated it’s gone. I blame myself for not being strong enough to become the person you believed I could be. The person I wanted to be, but just messed up too much and took the easy way out to satisfy my short term physical stresses even at the cost of your disappointment. I have a lot of regrets but losing you was easily the biggest one of my life. You are so beautiful and in the end I didn’t deserve you. I’m still heartbroken and can only wish you happiness.