I can’t believe its been nearly two years since we split. Life still feels weird without you, especially at family times like Christmas. When you were finishing things I remember you saying how can this be the right thing to do and I knew exactly what you meant. I had felt the same when I thought of breaking things off. I wouldn’t have done. I loved you too much and couldn’t imagine life without you and was scared to. You were my best friend.
In some ways I think we weren’t right for each other as were too similar in some respects, our stubbornness caused us to argue a lot. Looking back I regret several things like where to live and focusing so much on my horse but at times you were quite manipulative and made me quite upset. By the same token some of the best moments of my life were spent with you. We went from one extreme to the other, fighting like mad or dancing around the kitchen together. There was no middle ground.
I loved you so much and I know I didn’t always show it when I should have. I just hope one day I’ll find love again. Maybe in time we could be friends but I couldn’t cope with that now. I genuinely wish you all the best. You’ll always have a place in my heart but at the same time by not wanting to marry me after over a decade you’ll always be the one that shattered it. I just hope one day some one else will come along and pick up the pieces.