I’m writing you this [digital] message in a bottle fully expecting that you’ll never read it. For selfish reasons alone you’ll appreciate that there are some things I want to say to you however, I respect your wishes well enough not to actually send this message to you.
Essentially the message is simple enough. I still love you, even after this time. I still think about you every day and I just can’t seem to shake you away. The smallest reminders will remind me of us and it raises a small smile. A song will play and I’ll be transported years back in the past. I’ll look in my cupboard for a mug but there yours is etc. With this in mind, I know that just because I love you, it in no way means that we’re supposed to be together. You may even, as I suspect, still care about me and how I’m doing but I can see that as things stand, we may as well be oceans apart. However, I just want there to be the possibility that you could find this message and know the truth that I still do, and will always love and care about you.
I want you to know that you would be so proud of what I’ve achieved since we were together. I still ask myself WWKD and plan accordingly. You have had such a profound effect on my life and even in your leaving (however awful it was) I am so grateful that you were even in my life to mould me towards who I am today. In a sense, I’m obliged to thank you for giving me the impetus and the kick up the arse that I needed to find some direction in life. Something that would drive me towards being a better person.
In summary, I still love you. You made me a better person (you ought to see my fingernails now!) and I would love to thank you for the deep effect that you’ve had on my life, even after us. I pray you’re well too.
Always,
Pong