Well I blew it …like always. A nice guy chalked up as a douche. You are such a catch but my ignorance is so blind. We met in college, I knew I wanted you. We had each other for five years, not once did I want another girl. I’m not sure what i wanted though…I fell in love and that’s all I knew. You wanted me but we’re scared to give in. We both gave it a chance and I loved every second of it. Until I started to go crazy…mid 20s male in Los Angeles, it was bound to happen. You held on tight, but I was the one who wasn’t gripping. Now I made a fool of myself, and you. I could’ve done the right thing, but my heart yearned. I’m sorry. If it doesn’t work or if it does,I’m still sorry. I’m already thinking about how jealous I’ll be of your future husband or boyfriend. That hurts the most. I don’t want you to get used and I want nothing but the best for you. I’ll never know if we were meant to be until it’s too late.