Dear JJ,
The pain is immense. It hurts to breathe without you. What’s more painful than that? Watching my son’s heart break. He loves you more than I do. And here we are, with you gone. Again. What an awful mother I am, to let you back into our lives. Thinking that you wanted to be a part of it. And here I am. Again. Trying to figure out how to explain things to him, trying to fix it so he doesn’t feel the stabbing pain that I do. What an awful mother I am, to let you be a father figure to him, his best friend… Only to leave him behind. Dump me all you want, but don’t just leave my son. I have given you everything, and you’ve simply thrown it away. I don’t know what to do. How do I tell him, that once again, you have left us behind? What an awful mother I am, to have trusted you.
All I can hope, is that you will be easy to forget. Hopefully, we can erase the last 5 years from our memory.
Goodbye :*
TT