It’s been a year since we have divorced. A year since we both agreed that it was time to let it go. However, I wanted to let you know there are things I will be forever thankful for and things I will never let go. I am forever thankful for our crossed paths. I am thankful for our two beautiful boys. I am forever thankful of the things you taught me.
You taught me about love and ultimately about finding myself. My first real love, my first life altering, life changing, and life discovering love. A love that I put everything on the line for; changing my plans for: school, home, jobs, family, friends, and children. Although I wouldn’t change a thing, I learned that love can truly change your axis. I spent the last few years trying to rediscover a bit of my original axis and then trying to see where my soul’s current axis was reaching for. I look back now that all the hobbies I took up – was my soul trying to find me. To rediscover who I was. Because at the end of the day – I knew that if I didn’t find me and figure out who I was, how the heck could I love another? This all created the vulnerability – the weakness and the opening for an emotional connection that cheered me reaching for my self-discovery.
As I was searching for who I was, for what I stood for, of course you were upset. The person you thought you knew was changing and you wanted the woman who you have been with for the last decade. However, the more you grew frustrated about my changing axis, the more I pushed toward mine and the bigger emotional crack was built between us.
In the end, what a great love adventure we had and what a lesson we both have discovered. I see you now reaching for your own axis, your own self-discovery. I look back and am so thankful for our love path, because if we could love each other for so long when we didn’t know who each of us truly were – imagine the future relationships we both will have when we discover our true selves and can share openly and fearlessly.
God bless and thank you.