John,
I have been holding on for so so long doing everything i can possible to be better than her. to make you see that we could work.I have wasted 2 years of my life trying to win you from her. She may be the mother of your child but she will ruin every relationship you are going to be in. You ruined us. You wanted the perfect family with her but you also wanted the perfect little pretty girlfriend on your arm at the same time. I have lost count of how many times i have begged you to be with me when you had done wrong by me. I have completely lost respect of myself. I deserve better than this. I had enough and i think you know that by now i still love you and if things ever did change and you did let go of her from your life i think i would come back but right now i can not do it anymore. it is exhausting trying to act like im not bothered when i am even when i see her name appear on your phone i feel like my head is going to explode. I don’t think i even need to tell you were over my mood and the distance I have put between us lately says it all. I hope you will have a happy life and if you do care about her as much as you show i think you should try it together and not put another girl through what i have been through.

Love you always.