I think I always knew deep down you never wanted me but I honestly thought that when you finally asked me out in 2012 and I told you not to do it because you were lonely you had finally seen me but u didn’t you just saw an opportunity to use me even though I thought we were friends we couldn’t have been how over the next two years you literally broke me over and over again saying things like “why can’t you look like her?” Pointing to the sexy newsreaders on the tv like I needed to hear how ugly you thought I was? Seriously? But I thought I could make it work but the constant breaking up and then getting back should have told me all I needed to hear but I took it as a sign you must want to try but it wasn’t the case that text you wrote you know the A-Z of good and bad things? The one where you list all of my faults in lovely detail how I’m fat, ugly and all the other things you disliked I don’t know what made you listen to your idiot brother John but seriously Gerry did it ever occur to you how damn hurtful that would be for me to see? No you didn’t and I can honestly say I hate you for every nasty thing you said you were one of the biggest mistakes of my very sorry life but I also have to thank you if you hadn’t been such a douche ( trust me I’m watching my language or it would be all ######### ) then I wouldn’t be feeling so bloody awesome and wanted and sexy!

I used to be a size 20 weighing almost 16 stone at my heaviest with you whereas now I’m 12 stone 4llb and a size 12/14 and I am loving life and I have someone who has shown me what a real man is something I can’t say you were ever that!

And in the last year I have had so many compliments telling me such nice things that you just couldn’t and I know I shouldn’t but I’m smug just for the reason I know you will still be in the same sorry place as when I left all alone with that moron of a brother and your overbearing mother ( Silly how two grown men could be still scared of mummy that should have told me a lot!) But then I always was too opinionated wasn’t I? Yes shoot me for actually thinking for myself but then that’s where I’m a chav (your words even though it means council house and violent something which is not what I have ever been yet you lived in a council house and were violent? Strange that!) and you and your brother are smarter than all around yet you two will only ever have each other which God help me I’d rather be dead than that painful draining life now don’t get me wrong I’m as bitter as hell towards you everything you said or did made me feel a worthless human being and it has taken a true friend and man to show me how wrong you were and to finally be happier than you could ever imagine so this is the biggest up yours I can do whilst not sinking to your level I’m happy I smile (yep you heard me!) I laugh I hope with all my will you never get to experience how bad you made me feel but I also hope that you are never ever happy you are the ugliest person (inside) that I have had the displeasure of meeting (Although you and yr brother are tied 1st!) and you don’t deserve to be this happy and loved yes I said it loved!

When on my 37th birthday when you said about starting a family and getting married I really was happy but compared to this that day was the saddest day of my life that’s how frigging happy and good I feel so I think that’s about all oh I have to add I loved the way I dumped you the day before your birthday because you thought I wouldn’t yes you were that arrogant to think that and when I did you cried like a baby but that was the day May 19th 2015 that any feelings that I had for you died yes I know I carried on sleeping with you but that was just me being lazy to replace you didn’t like it when I found someone else ( you really believed non one else would want me? Proved you so wrong now haven’t I?!)

But I always told you I’ve never had a problem attracting men but you thought that was me being let’s say over ambitious it’s not that hard to meet a guy and have fun unless your related to you and your brother which thank god for the world isn’t that many and ur genes are diluted down to nothing because it’s not like you would make a good dad is it? And don’t get me wrong I know I have my faults but nowhere as many as you are so goodbye Gerry I hope you live a long and painful life just so you can think about your miserable life in great detail!

So Goodbye you moron you lost out on a fantastic woman who would have given you the world but now some lucky MAN gets that chance enjoy my Facebook posts of my fabulous new life xxxx

All my hate
Shelly