There are many things that were left unsaid from my part, things that still after two months have passed I still have things I wish I could’ve told you but never could and yet we’re texting right now and I still can’t tell you these things. Sometimes I try to convince myself that you were never good for me but ugh!! You were soooo good it was hard to convince myself!

You’re someone I want but I know I shouldn’t have, you’re someone I know would make me happy to a point though just to a certain point. We could’ve been good but as you said “I was the flower you picked but I’m also the flower that died.” I can never come back from that. Because you’re the one that decided to not water me, you saw I was weak for a moment and you got yourself a new flower to water… and Yes, I was captivated by you.

No one has ever had such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I just cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. I want someone, I can give my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those, not even as a friend. You just don’t even know what you do, you do this thing that you appear when you get bored I guess? And then suddenly disappear again. I think I’ve given so much of my time of me just to walk away now but it’s just the right thing to do. But I don’t know… maybe I’ll keep texting you until you get bored again and disappear?

2:30am