“keep my name out of your mouth”

You unblocked me specifically to tell me that. My first thought was “who do you think are?” but I already know exactly who you are.

You are the one who mentally and emotionally abused, controlled, and manipulated me for years. You are the one who took my voice away. You are the one who broke me. You are the one that made me believe I had and was nothing without you. You are the one that brainwashed and tricked me into doing things that I was vehemently against for your own pleasure. You are the one who sexually abused and repeatedly raped me after we were married when I refused you. You are the one who nearly beat me to death on 18 September 2014 when you realized that I was leaving for good. You are the one who harassed me for months trying to regain your control over me before, during, and after our divorce. You are the reason I suffer flashbacks, nightmares, and recoil from physical touch EVERY SINGLE DAY.

Despite everything you did to me, I got out and survived. I have moved on. I have an absolutely amazing husband who loves me despite everything I still suffer with from the trauma. I have a wonderful family who I know will always have my back. I have friends that truly support and care for me. I have a home where I am safe. I have more blessings in my life than I ever thought possible, even if it’s sometimes hard to see through the pain.

If you don’t like having your name associated with being an abusive rapist, then you shouldn’t have done what you did to me. My pain and suffering are real; but, I did not cause it. It is not my shame. It is not my burden to carry. I will not be silent or hide anymore. You do not have any right to tell me what to do and will never control me again.

OSCAR, go to hell.