Dear Ken,

Happy New Year. I wish you, your work and your new girlfriend all the best this 2017.

It’s a new year, and I want to be positive and make peace with all the hurt and resentment of 2016. To some extent, I still can’t believe you seem so different from the person I dated and made love with just last summer, but I must accept that the you I saw after we broke up was also very much you. It’s sadly funny, that I seemed to learn more about you the less I heard from you. All those months hoping to talk to you to get closure, only to get rebuffed … I thought at first you were hurting as I was, but found out later you had already gotten attached to a new girlfriend, just a month after we broke up. Ken, you have made me so happy, but sad to say, you’ve also hurt me very badly. I’ve spent months in pain and anger, refusing to move on because I hoped you would somehow explain yourself and let me forgive you, but you only kept stringing me along saying you wanted to be friends while barely replying me at all for 6 months. I even wished you Happy New Year 2 days ago, and any polite person would have at least said thank you, but you didn’t even reply me. Ken, could that really have been you?

Ken, it hurts to even wonder if you’d ever realise what you did to me now that we’re no longer in touch. It hurts me to think that maybe one day you’ll figure it all out, but then only your next girlfriend or wife will be able to be with you, and not me. I even wish I were a snowflake so I could catch a glimpse of you by your window. But alas, I am far away from you now, and before I slip back into the abyss of 2016, I must stop myself.

I have to move on, and I will. I only hope I’ll be able to find someone like you in your best moods, but without the insecurity or lack of respect at your worst. Ken, I wish you all the best with the love I still feel for you. I hope you’ll have a great 2017.

Love,
Mae