Dear B,

I will always remember the very first time we met, the very first time my lips touched your lips, the very first time you wrapped your arms around me and I rested my head on your shoulder. Your smile, your way of looking at me will always be fresh in my memory. There are so many lovely memories but the fact remains the memories are not enough to bind us for rest of our lives. The picture of your charming smile keep flashing back in front of my eyes; though I know things will never be the same but … I just can’t stop myself .. I still love you, I always will. But being in love with you is a different story.

There are so many unanswered questions in my mind that sometimes my mind can’t even wrap around everything. Why? Why cheat on someone you claim to love. If you loved me you’d never have been able to do that.

I forgave you, that’s was my mistake. What happened the morning of us having to sort ourselves out will be with me for the rest of my life. A Subdural Hematoma later, which resulted in my whole life being put on hold. A year later after stringing me along, you’re with her. But know that I forgive you now. Not because I want you in my life. But I forgive you for my own peace of mind.

Whatever happens, I wish you well. You truly do deserve the best that life has to offer you.

So, I guess this is my last goodbye.. I will never forget the way you made my heart feel for the short time you loved me. I lived – while you loved me. I have to do what’s best for me now. I have to focus on making the best out of what life has given me. I have to let you go. Wow – that was the hardest line to type. Goodbye, beautiful. Don’t forget about me. If God decided to take me from this world, please know in your heart that you were loved with everything in my being. I wish you all the happiness life can offer.
I’m sorry if I ever hurt you or did or said anything wrong to you… I hope your relationship with her works out and all the best with it. We can’t move forward if we’re constantly looking back.

Ps. This needed to be said because I don’t want to live in the past any longer. I’ve found someone and she’s beautiful inside and out. I’m doing this for her and myself. She doesn’t deserve to bare with the little trust issues I once carried.

Love,

Monkey