I still love you, but I know I shouldn’t. Its been a few months since I’ve seen your face. I miss you every single day. You write me letters that all say the things I would’ve loved to hear when you were here. You blew up the little safe world I created. I hate you more than anyone can ever imagine. I want to tell you to stop trying to call me, I want to tell you to go fuck off.. I just can’t seem to though. As I sit here in the park we had our first date I think of all the shitty and amazing moments I had with you. You wasted my time, for four whole years. I gave up everything for you and in the end you fucked me over by doing what you did with that girl. While I was pregnant and still pregnant. Made me have to this entire thing on my own. I love you very much and all I can do is wish the best for you. I will do this own my own, I will overcome the sadness you caused. You gave me more determination to go back to medical school and become the person I’ve always dreamed of. I will the best dad you could ever be to our child. You will regret what you have done. I see how much you wish you could take it all back, but in this life you only get one chance to do it right. Maybe in the next life it’ll go better for the both of us. Stay sane, stay safe. I love you you asshole.
Dear baby daddy