My Superman,
I don’t know how much time I’ve spent re-living the past in my head or looking through our old posts…trying to pin point exactly where things went wrong. what happened to us…? Why couldn’t we just open up to each other like we should have…? Why did we let everything get in the way…? We planned a life together…and the life is still clear in my mind as if we’d just planned it yesterday….
I wish I would have told you about my depression, especially when it reared its ugly head again. I wish I would have paid more attention…maybe then I would have noticed yours…realized that something was wrong. I wish I would have tried harder to get you to open up when I knew what was wrong but you were shutting me out. I thought you needed time…and instead that time pushed you into someone else’s arms…
I made so many mistakes…and I can’t help but wonder if something, just one thing different, could have saved us…
Even after…Trying to be your friend. I tried so hard to be okay…because at least we were talking…and you were opening up to me so much more than you ever had before. But, every time I saw you, every memory, every feeling came running back. And whatever is still between us…what ever keeps pulling us back together…caused us to make mistakes…and I am sorry for what came of those mistakes…
But I do not regret them…and its hard for me to even call them mistakes…
and now … You’re pushing me away while everything in your life spirals out of control and I don’t know what to do. I’m supposed to walk away…let you go. But leaving you alone…when it seems like you have no one else…I don’t know if I can…I can try…but I’ll always be worried…wondering. You don’t think you have it in you to be this great guy I remember, but I do. And I want you to get to that place and become a man that our daughter would be proud of…That my son would be proud of…
You have it in you. I know you do. And I’ve always believed in you. And if you want me gone…Then I’ll be gone…and I’ll be wishing you well. but I’m only a text or a call away…

I still love you so much…and I do hope you find REAL happiness.

Forever & Always,

Your Batgirl.