Dear D,
It hasn’t been long since our relationship failed miserably. It hasn’t been long since you held me in your arms and told me I was perfect and you loved every part of me. I remember our first kiss, our first night spent together, our first dance and how I thought I would spend my life with you. You made me incredibly happy and brought back something to my life I didn’t think I would have for a long time, at a very hard time in my life. I laughed, smiled and felt beautiful just sitting next to you, knowing I was yours and that you couldn’t keep your hands or eyes off me. However one day recently you decided you were not in love with me anymore, that I was a mistake and that we needed to separate. I realize what I did wrong, what you did wrong, what we did wrong. We lost each other.

We lost each other in life, in stress, in blame and instead of supporting each other how we should we placed fault where fault had no place. Life is hard, for me even the bad days were worth it with you for the few smiles or laughs and effort we tried. But we became overrun with resentment that only built a wall between us until it forced me out and broke my heart. I only ever wanted the best for us, and I still do weather we are together or apart. Right now is complicated and very difficult trying to see each other or talking occasionally, but having to walk away every time when all I want is to stay and have our life back. But I will do what I can to perhaps gain your love back eventually, even if it means to cry every night alone looking at photos of us smiling.

I never will doubt that you loved me, that you cared for me and wanted us to succeed. We used to say ” I love you more” back and forth until we couldn’t stand it any longer. But the truth of the matter is, I do love you more & I never stopped. I still love you through all the hurt, all the confusion, all the bullshit life has thrown at us that brought us to this point. I can only hope one day our lives accommodate eachother again, because I miss you more then you will ever know. As soon as I see you for a bit and walk away I miss you instantly and hope you feel that way sometimes too watching me leave thinking about what good we did have.

I love you more…

T