Listen, I knew the moment I meet you you were my soul mate, we get along like no other. When your around I feel like that’s home . I don’t know how to say this boo boo but I know we’re going on five years this year, not the best year we had but definitely different. I know things between me and you are different now. Why? Idk! 2 years ago you told me you wanted to be friends because you need time and because you know we had no future together due to the fact that ARE culture clash. The moment you told me that my heart broke, and all I could do is cry and think and think and try to be there with you and love you knowing this is it. Lying and telling myself that maybe just maybe one day you would change your mind about everything. At one point In time you were my world my everything . You don’t understand how hard it is to be with someone you love so much knowing we have no future together , knowing things will never be how they should. I try speaking to you less and calling less and seeing you less, I even stop bringing mya and j around because they were already use to you being around. I hate the fact that you tell me your single and rub in my face, but still have me over and kiss me and tell me I’m everything to you, call me your boo boo, and love, and you want me to be around forever. why do you keep leading me on and giving me false hope ? As the days go by I’m now starting to realize that maybe you should go and figure things out on your own and find someone you can have a future with. It hurts me knowing that we went from being together to just being friends feeling like I’m with you but really I’m single! I’m tired of this feeling, I’m tired of being your secret. I’m tired of being that girl you can’t bring around your friends, 5tired of being the girl you always put down, tired
Of being the girl you have to hide, tired of being the girl you can’t introduce to your parents , tired of being that girl your embarrassed about , tired of being the girl you call your homie when you treat me like your girl, tired of being the girl you hang with on your own time . I wanna be the girl that he is proud to show me off and not embarrassed to bring me to his family and friends. Honestly I just really wanna be the girl where someone can love me like the way I love you. I pray for you everyday, that maybe one day you will find what your looking for. Just don’t keep lying to me and keeping me around until you do . I’m trying my best to be your friend but it’s very difficult for me and I know you don’t deserve my love . I think this is time for me to focus on me and what I deserve. Please forgive me for the one time in the last I hurt you , I had my reasons . Please forgive me for loving you with everything I had . I tried my very best to always be good and respectful to you and make you feel handsome and special in every way, always even when you were ugly to me . The one thing I can say is I never never , not once in all these years Cursed you out and made you feel like you were nothing even when you deserved it . I never was the ugly person to you . I never called you names or made fun of you . That I am proud to say . I had the best times in my life with you . We did so much together and we have made so many memories . I meet you when I was 19 and I’ll be 25 this year . I have learned so much from you , thanks for always be there for me and loving me as much as you could . You will always be my boo boo in my heart . This isn’t going to be a easy goodbye like anyone else because the relationship between you and I is completely different. It’s so hard to say goodbye to someone your not even on bad terms with at all but I must take these baby steps too get me on my way because Fairytales don’t always have a happy ending . But I do ask and want you to just one thing ONE THING FOR ME! When you do find someone new please please LOVE THEM THE WAY I LOVED YOU! And ladies never put a man before yourself ever.
ALWAYS YOUR BOO BOO!