Dear Lukas,

Meeting you changed up all my life and losing you too.
I made mistakes. I hurt you. I miss you.

Today I look back.
A few seconds bevor midnight at New Years Eve I stared at the stars holding my cup of wine and prayed bitterly for a better year for both of us. My fingers grabed the cold cup thight, my heart felt heavy. I wonderd if you thought of me too and I had to blink away my tears.

Lukas, Today I looked at my future.
This year is wonderful to me. It didn’t take away any of my pain or my sorrows but it gave me a few little sparkes of light in this cold drakness without you. It’s like my wish came true.

Sometimes I wish that I wished for you.
But sometimes…

Life is taking me further away from you. Maybe I can live life tomorrow.

Tammy