Dear fayad, *Babyboo*
I’m sorry for not being what you expected. I am sorry I wasn’t good enough for you. I’m sorry I was immature, I’m sorry I was stupid and crazy. I was only 16 years old. But I loved you truly with all my heart. I gave you all I had to offer, I gave you my heart. Yes I made mistakes, yes I lied you, yes I made you cried, yes we had our ups and downs. We both were immature and crazy Inlove, We’re young. It’s been three (3) years since we broke up, and yet I cannot get over it. Fayad I have loved you more than anything else in this world. I know I made my mistakes by lying to you about stupid little stuffs. Honestly speaking I loved you with all my heart. I talked about you day and night with my friends and family. I was very much proud to call you my boyfriend and was so fill of happiness. We both forgiven each other for all the stupid stuffs we did and said. And we continued to be happy, and you said everything will be alright, and I trusted you. But the sad part was, you never told me you were going to leave the country and only visit back on vocations. Until the day has come when you got through with your papers then you told me everything. That day I swear after hearing what you said to me on the phone I cried my heart out. After you told me that we were too young for this relationship and we do not know what love is and you want to focus on yourself more and how your teachers and friends telling you that you will get more beautiful girls, and it’s getting into your head I was shocked, I was broken I was hurt, all because I loved you more than anything else. Couple hours before you left the country you called and promised me that everything will be alright. And you will write me a letter and explain everything. I cried my heart out that day as I hugged the teddy bear you gave me. I went flat on the floor and cried fayad. I screamed so loudly my parents had to talk to me and tell me everything will be alright. I couldn’t stop thinking about you not even for a second. There was no happiness in me anymore. As the week went by I remembered you told me you will write me a letter so everytime I know the post man in the village I always be looking out and waiting for that letter to come. I have waited almost a year and I have never heard a word from you. Fayad you have really broke me into pieces, you left me broken and you knew it. But you never cared to think or called. You were all happy with your new life in America. While I was back home crying my heart out for you. Sweetheart fayad it’s been 3 years since you left and I am still here hurt but I am happy I have heard from you and all is going well on your side . You will forever be in my heart since you are the first and only guy who have/will break me down so much. I just hope that one day you will realized and feel how much you really have meant to me, and how much you have really hurt me deep inside. You broke my heart. You broke and left me into pieces. You just didn’t care did you? We are all humans fayad we are all humans. We do have feelings we do have hearts we do feel. Although you are so much heartless I forgive you and I will never hate you. My heart is still broken into pieces. My first lover all I asked of you today
(Please don’t ever break another girls heart like what you did to mines)
Fayad you made not feel the pain and know how much it really do hurts. But it’s very painful it makes you smile on the outside while your inside is cries. My babyboo your forever on my heart like a tattoo and I will forever love you no matter what. . . .