from the day I meet you I feel in love , there was always something about you , the way you smile , they way you walk literally everything
, I never felt so happy and nervous to see someone before .. i would smile all night knowing I’m seeing you , I would get so happy just to sit next to you in the car , my fucking knees would go weak , I loved when
You would tell me about your day , just dumb little shit ,
I would get butterflies when you would call me or tell me your on your way .. you made me feel like I was the luckiest girl in the world , That I can do anything and become anything , You are literally my sky and moon , I never felt so in love with someone , you are literally the best thing to me ever , you were my whole heart , you don’t understand the impact you have on me , I really feel like you were my
Daddy as werid as it sounds , I loved laying with you & just watching you sleeping or taking a shower with you , just everything was special to me even thow I was a brat .. We argued a lot but I didn’t wanna lose You , a lot of times you made me feel like I wasn’t good enough after awhile , making jokes about my weight , I felt like I was in competition with girls no matter how much you claimed you loved me & I never made you not feel good enough, never made a comment about your weight or you need to dress nice for me or do this and that , I thought
You were so handsome and perfect even if you didn’t shower for a year or got a haircut for months or ever again , like I loved your smile and your fucked up tooth .. you literally walked all over me zak , doing what you did a month in our relationship & me finding out months later really fucked me up , I had so much anger and animosity for not leaving you when I shoulda, you may not look at it like it was serious but it was so serious to me, but I loved you so much I stood , hoping things would get better .. you held me when I was breaking .. you accusing me of doing things in the beginning just because you were so guilty .. I was so innocent and In love , I was such a fragile and a dumb girl & you got me when I was weak and insecure, you knew I would never have the guts to leave you ever ..I never felt so low after that , you tried making things work and they couldn’t , I didn’t trust you at all and worried everyday if you were gonna cheat again and I’m quiet happy I don’t gotta deal with that ever again , I was so angry our whole relationship after that , that’s also why I feel like I would snap and bug on literally everything , I had so much animosity towards you it was disgusting.. the way you speak to me nobody would ever let you speak to them like that , but I do cause I’m an asshole .. sometimes I feel so damaged but also so empty at the same time .. it scares me how you really don’t care to ever speak to me again when I die inside when you don’t even answer me ..you treat me like I’m literally nothing to you .. would you want someone to treat ya daughter and speak to her like how you do to me ?? That is disgusting and disrespectful how you do that water shit with me , when you make out with someone and god only knows what you guys do together && you have no respect for me at all , it’s so sad how much love I have for
You and you just don’t care for my feelings at all .. I would literally do anything for you & your just a cunt to me for no reason .. yes I’m a physco and bug out cause I get upset .. you don’t know how I feel ,
You never put yourself in my shoes .. imagine being so in love with someone and loving someone that is with someone eles but you guys still fuck and talk , and one said wants a friendship and another don’t give a fuck .. its so hard
You will never understand ….. I hope you will understand how I feel one day , and throwing how you don’t love me in my face I never felt so hurt right there in my life ever , when you know your my weak spot and I love you more then anything .. your such a dick and cunt to the wrong person , and it’s so sad honestly , it’s suck you always disrespect me and I still care and love
You , when I can be loving someone eles who loves me and I can’t cause I love
You so much it’s ridiculous, I can be happy with someone but I can’t I feel like it was always suppose to be you , like I really love
You a lot and you don’t understand I can’t let you go and trust me I’m trying
To and I hate it bad , I hope you realize how mean and disrespectful you are to someone who loves you more then anything and realize how wrong you treat me .. maybe we are better off loving each other as friends, because loving each other as lovers did nothing but destroy us. Thank you for making me feel like I am worthless in this world.. I don’t wanna give up on you , I hope you realize how much I love you