Dear Tom,
A few weeks ago I had so much anger, disappointment and frustration in me, that I hoped you would suffer more than I did with this break up. I hated the thought that you got away with being an ashole, I hated the thought of you getting away with being ignorant, in fact with being a coward. I hoped that one day you would realise, I was the one that got away, and you would hate yourself for that. I was angry and disappointed at the same time because I thought you had integrity, respect, gratitude and kindess in you, the things I was looking for in a man. I was hurt, heart broken! Because you didnt keep your promise. We promised to communicate and to be a team, always. I wanted to believe in our promise so much, that I lost sight of who I am and what I actually want. I got caught up in trying so hard to keep my end of the promise, that I didnt see the big picture. I compromised myself, I compromised parts of me that I shouldnt have. And this is why I am greatful! I am greatful you had this much courage to listen to your gut, that told you this wasnt right. Thank you for being honest, even though you struggled to find words. Thank you for sharing a chapter in my life. Thank you for all the memories and adventures but most and for all, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for showing me, that I am able to love again. I didnt think I was and maybe thats why it was so damn hard to let go of you, and it still is. But I am getting better at it each day. I dont know If we were meant to be or not to be,but who knows that really?What I do know is youre not happy, you never were. And really thats a shame, because you deserve to be. You deserve to find your own kind of happiness. The happiness that doesnt depent on your circumstances, because happiness shouldnt depend on your relationships, your job or money, it depends on you! And I hope that one day you can comprehend what that actually means. As for my happiness, I need to let you go. I am wishing you well. Maybe one day I will sent this letter directly to you, but for now I am leaving it here. If this letter finds you, I want you to know that ” you can never cross the ocean, unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore”.
Goodbye Mister Thomas J.W.D.
Stay humble, work hard, keep having courage and be kind, as I know you will.