We met when we were young, very young actually and we became ridiculously good friends. Best friends really. You were there for me when I felt like nobody else was, when I was at my lowest point you picked me back up and looked after me without even having to say a word. We could spend time in each other’s company so easily, like breathing. Effortless. When the feelings came into play that’s when things got messy. We hid it from all our friends because we had our exes still around within our social circles so we kept it quiet but we were so so in love. Or so I’d thought. I felt so different with you, unlike anyone else before. You made me feel so special and loved and wanted and on top of that you were my best friend. What I didn’t know what that even though we only dated for four months technically, at the start of our relationship (when we’d already been seeing each other for over a month and had said the L-word), you slept with your ex. Kept it from me for four months. Said it was an accident, a drunken mistake. I found out, after you’d broken up with me, from a mutual friend and my whole world collapsed at 5am. I’m a naturally very guarded person but you wiggled your way in to my life, my guard was down and I was vulnerable but I was so so happy and in love that I was enjoying allowing my emotions to run wild. You broke that trust. It’s now been 5 months and I still think about it all the time, it still hurts me, I am so lonely but I can’t move on because I’m constantly questioning other people’s motives and if they’ll also betray my trust. To top off this beautiful situation, you’re now back together with your ex (not the one he cheated on me with, but one who threatened both of us when we actually started dating, full on psycho) and you have no care about me any more. What hurts the most, I think, it isn’t losing you as my boyfriend (because let’s face it, you’re always going to be a cheating piece of crap) but it’s losing you as my best friend, and that you don’t even care about me one single bit now. I would have done anything for you. I hope you have a very lonely, painful and horrible life. I also really hope one day you fall for someone this hard and they do this to you, because then you might understand how I feel.
I wish I’d never met you