Dear G,
These days I’m thinking a lot about you, it may be because I’m in a complete new life and it’s kind of overwhelming because I feel so alone. I miss you so much, you kept my life from feeling empty and dull. I just wish I could rewind time to hear you say you miss me and that I’m the only thing that gives you joy. I know we’ve awful to each other and I know that you hate me, but I still love you so much it hurts. I listen to Trilogy and I cry thinking about us even tho for you we were never really a thing. A thing that lasted 9 months and that you just threw out of the window for some other girl. I have difficulty letting go of you I thought your hatred would help me detach myself but it’s not working. I don’t know what I want for you but It makes me so sad to think about how far I went destroying myself because I couldn’t be with you. I’m looking for an other you in this lonely life but I can’t find it because there isn’t one. I truly believe that maybe when we’ll get other we’ll go to that motel you brought me the first time you kissed me. The night that began our story, the night that still gives me butterflies when I think about it. I miss you J and I’m sorry for deleting the thing you loved more than me, your Instagram.