Becky,
ever since you left for him my life has been miserable. the first few moths spending summer all alone led me to believing my life was worth nothing and if it wasn’t for dad i wouldn’t be here writing this letter. I will always admit that it wasn’t all your fault you left i didn’t deserve to be with you. But my problem is you hid how you felt because you were petrified i had no idea that you were miserable all that time. i understand we were officially over in january and that it hurt you badly. but because we never physically broke up i never lost anything so i thought i was over you because i was fine. When in reality i was fine because you were still there. You did all you could to make me stay you did seduce me and it worked i was weak in that respect but you were hard to resist. Look i know none of this matters anymore and i don’t even know why I’m writing this. you’re happy with ryan and I’m absolutely heartbroken nearly half a year on. Seeing you everyday at school is killing me more than you could possibly imagine. we weren’t over and you know it but you treated me like shit and now theres no chance we could even be friends in the future. I wish we could be but too much has happened. i should hate you so so so much for just giving up on me like that. but i don’t. i Miss you so much and honestly knowing I’m gonna have to go through life without you… tbh i can’t even describe how heart wrenching that really feels. I’m sorry we fucked it up but i suppose losing me was the best thing that ever happened to you. i love you