Hello Pepeng Hamog,

It’s been more than a year now. Belated happy birthday by the way. 🙂 I know, you couldn’t possibly read this letter, but if and when you do, I hope you remember the good times we had.

Things didn’t end up well between us. Not that I wish for us to end up together, but I wish things could’ve ended differently. I might’ve done stupid things that could’ve hurt you, but you have hurt me badly too. I wish I could’ve forgiven you as easy as that, but its difficult to forgive when you’re still hurting. Now, I can say I forgive you.

Thank you for all the memories and the laughters we shared. Thank you for making your family a part of my chapter. Thank you for helping me finally move on from the pain of losing my first love. For these amd many more, I really want to thank you. If there is something I regret about losing you, it’s knowing I lost one of the best friends I had in my life.

I want to thank you for letting me go. I know, that somewhere, somehow, you did it for me. Because you know it’ll be for my greater good. It was hard for me to see that at first, but after we broke up, I was finally able to do things I know I couldn’t have done and achieved with you. So, thank you.

I was able to love myself more. And to enjoy life more. I now go out with friends. Instead of wanting to just hang out with you. I enclosed myself in a universe with you. And it hasn’t been healthy. Now, I was able to concentrate on my job and since wanting to forget you made me spend more time at work, I finally got that promotion I wanted. I’m able to spend Christmas and holidays with my family now. Coz if you’re with me, I know, I would rather spend it with you. And it hasn’t been healthy.

Thank you for giving me the chance to be with someone better. To have my own happy ending, the happy ending I wouldn’t have gotten a hundred percent from you because you were married.

I wish you well. I wish that someday, you’d be able to make peace with all the ghosts of your past.

CC