Its almost been a year. A year since you completely destroyed me inside. Ive been in a mental hell since. You have no clue what you did to me. You were cheating on me. Abusing me. I went through 2 surgeries. 2 family deaths. All while you were talking to your dope whore behind my back. Do you know how many nights i spent crying? Screaming out to god to let the pain end? How many times i prayed for god to just end my pain? Prayed that god would help me move on? My heart took a near fatal blow. My mind & even my faith in god wavered. Why did you do this to me? You are a cold heartless bastard & I pray the same thing happens to you. I’m positively crazy pissed that I wasted all that time praying for you. Loving you. Supporting you. Looking beyond so many red flags to see the good in you. Its was all for nothing though & you didnt care anyway. My heart still hasnt found closure but my mind tells me to move on. 4 weeks ago you ran your dope whore off & then decided to contact me. Wsnting me to meet you & talk to you. When you see that I didnt just run & do that you got your dope whore to come back. You havent changed & never will…still my heart wants those good days with you. Misses those days beyond belief. Why couldnt God just answer my prayers? Why did you hurt me like this? I would have never done this to you. I hate you JH!!! I hate you for what you did & probably always will