i spent so much of my time and energy investing it into something i should’ve known would’ve never worked. i’m fucking glad your happier now that you cut me out of your life. it’s great to know that the one person I really fucking cared about couldn’t give a single fuck whether or not i’m okay. and fyi, if you haven’t caught on, i’m not. its good to know how shitty of a fucking person you are. i just wish you could’ve saved me some damn time and showed me your true colours before i went off and tore myself apart to please you. you made last year a fucking living hell for me. every single day i would go home and stare at myself in the mirror wondering what else i could do to make myself better for you. i would skip dinner cause maybe it was my weight. i’d wear more makeup cause maybe it was my face. i’d wear less makeup cause maybe it was too much for you. id change my motherfucking eyebrow shape cause maybe that what you hated. i cut people out of my fucking life cause you didn’t fucking like them. i was infatuated with the thought of you and even just the sound of your voice could turn my day upside down. I helped you through so much stupid bs, you were my rock and i was yours. i was the person you ran too. you would get fucking jealous when i talked to people before i talked to you. i would get jealous when you would talk to others but not me. i was so naive and stupid to realize just how fucking toxic you were. you genuinely broke me and i fucking hate you for that.